Technically, the first day of Lunar New Year is almost over, and to be honest to myself, I wasn't in the mood to celebrate, partly because I'm not surrounded by the hyper atmosphere in Vietnam, yet right now I am in a faraway land of Melbourne - Australia, where it just happens to be any other ordinary day of these 365 days.
Although in my last entry, I felt that New Year has begun in a positive manner, lately, I find myself trapped in depressed state.
I doubt.
Doubtful of myself.
Tons of questions like 'what can I do?', 'why am I doing this, not that?', 'where am I heading for?', etc. keep echoing in my mind. It's like nothing seem to work.
The songs on my playlists are not upbeat.
The motivation to follow dreams is poor.
Self-esteem is low.
Boredom has become my new friend.
I was hesitated to note down my screaming thoughts. I was reluctant to get an escape exit.
I know that is not right. Lucky enough, again, reading blogs is my therapy; and this inspiring article found its way to my desperate me.
Well, of course the energy cannot be fully recharged just by an article, however, what it did to me, (again), is telling me that it's okay to be imperfect, that it's not wrong to feel blue, that I can be proud of myself for even the smallest things I have.
Yeah, be proud.
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At least I am proud that no matter how stuck I may be, I do always remember to smile.
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